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Randomness from a 2005 graduate of The Moritz College of Law at The Ohio State University

 

Saturday, May 29, 2004

Lions and tigers and bears....and train rides, oh my. I took my little sister to the zoo today and we spend at least as much time waiting in line for rides as we did looking at animals. But we had a good time, saw some giraffes and rode the train, saw some gibbons and rode the boat. It was a nice day considering I don't especially like animals.

Right now I'm watching Down With Love. This movie is awful. I'm still watching it, but I don't know why. David Hyde Pierce is relatively funny, but other than that it is almost unbearable. I remember seeing a preview that I liked, and I think that is why I can't make myself turn it off. Maybe next I should watch Simone, another of the movies that I thought looked good in previews but barely lasted in the theaters. |
 

Friday, May 28, 2004

Today I, and apparently every other clerk in Columbus, went to a legal research and writing seminar put on by the Columbus Bar Association. It was a good effort, but I hope my firm didn't pay too much for it. First we had an hour and a half session about legal writing. Considering it was taught by the professor that every single OSU 2L has for appellate advocacy it ended up just being an incredibly truncated version of that class. I did notice the girl next to me actually taking notes occasionally, so maybe it was helpful for non-OSU people. Or people who didn't pay attention the first time. Then we had other sessions in smaller groups. I decided to pass on the "internet search engines" class. I know more ways than is good for me about searching online already. I also skipped cost effective research because my firm gets basically everything I would ever want included in their flat rate. My first session was about Ohio cases and citations. I thought that would be fairly useful since Ohio insists on using its own bizarre citation format and prohibiting citation of practically everything useful. Unfortunately, it was not quite as helpful as I might have hoped. The librarian who taught it needed about 2 1/2 hours to get to the information he was supposed to cover in 30 minutes. So basically we got what you might expect out of 20% of a presentation. The second session was about Ohio statutes and administrative rules. I knew most of what was taught from working at the Senate, but it was a nice refresher and probably very useful to people who haven't used the O.R.C. much. Finally we had a panel with five attorneys talking about how they got where they are and giving advice and the usual sort of stuff. They were relatively interesting, but hopefully no one needed their advice. It was recommended that if you can't turn an assignment in on time, "don't hide." I'll try to remember that. Most of the advice was along those lines. They were talking about work/life balance and a woman from the A.G.'s office said that she has to admit that right before a trial she sometimes has to work 100 hours in a two week period. There was audible laughter. It may not have been groundbreaking, but they were all decent speakers and somewhat interesting. Afterwards I got to talk to one of the speakers who had clerked for the judge who I will be externing with in the fall. She gave me some very valuable advice, so in the end the seminar was worthwhile. Although it did give me a kind of sick feeling seeing so many people from school again (except Chris, of course). Now I get to spend my weekend doing work since I spent 5 hours of my day at this seminar. |
 

Monday, May 24, 2004

I can't believe this is the beginning of my fourth week of work. I am already used to the routine. I am sleeping much better lately, and I think it may be partially related to the regular schedule I'm keeping. Or maybe it's just that there is so much less stress now. School isn't that stressful, but exams always loom. Now I just go to work and try to do my best. At school that may not be enough, because grading ends up being so unpredictable, but at work, it seems to be more than enough. It is also nice to get continuous positive feedback for a change. Of course it is unrealistic to expect that, but it sure feels good. I think I'm also enjoying being free from some of the negative, competitive personalities at school. I'm just grateful for the break. |
 

Saturday, May 22, 2004

I was doing some thinking about love today. This was mostly because I watched Message in a Bottle and Kate and Leopold. Yes, I had a very relaxing Saturday. But anyway, I've been thinking about love a lot lately. A couple weeks ago one of my best friends asked me why I wasn't dating. She said her dad had even asked her about it. I guess it does seem a little weird to people who know me well, since I'm one of those people who is never single. I always had a boyfriend for 10 years. Generally had a back-up too. I remember telling one boyfriend that even though I didn't want things to end with him, I wasn't that scared because I knew someone else would "just appear." Well, I got to the point finally where I don't want anyone else to appear. I came to the conclusion that I am just not cut out for dating, and certainly not for being in love. I told my friend this when she asked and she seemed to think it was an incredibly depressing answer. It is to an extent, but the feeling of just not caring has also been incredibly freeing. There is no more stress, no more tears, no more demands, just me, doing whatever I want.

But watching these movies, I longed for the feeling of love. There were a couple of moments in each where the woman looked like she felt so safe in the man's arms. There is nothing that compares to that feeling of being held and feeling like the two of you make up the entire universe. And there were moments in each that showed the characters longing for each other when they were apart. As painful as that can be, it also reminds you that you are alive. Loving someone is being alive.

I still stand by my belief that I have no place dating. I know that I don't have the strength to love. And that attitude has certainly had a positive impact on my studying. But, when school is over, and I have had another year of solitude, I hope that I am ready to be open to love again, and that I am still able to remember what it is like to be alive. |
 

Thursday, May 20, 2004

I am currently experiencing the blissful feeling of a girl who has just had a very successful shopping trip. Buying a few nice things can really do wonders for the spirit. As long as it's under control, shopping is great medicine. The craziest person I ever saw shopping was my ex. When he was upset, nothing could console him like a trip to Best Buy or almost anywhere else that sells DVDs. When we got there he would almost lose control and go tearing up and down the aisles grabbing DVDs off the shelves, barely caring what they were, and not even remembering if he already owned them. When we were safely back in the car, I would unwrap them for him, and he would finally be calm and happy again. Remembering that image of him, I know I will never have a real problem using shopping to make myself feel better.

Work is still good. Really good. I have no complaints at all. I still like everyone. I still like the work. I do not like certain areas of law, however. But that's okay, and I would rather do things that I find uninteresting but at least have variety. Oh wait, I have one kind of half complaint. You know how at some firms it is practically a competition to see who can book the summer associates for lunch first? Well, I just want someone to eat lunch with in the break room. If someone were to suggest going to get lunch together (not even on the company), I would be ecstatic. I suspect most of the attorneys either don't eat lunch or eat at their desks, but it is seriously depressing when I make the effort to get to know people by eating in the break room and there is no one else there. But I'm happy there anyway. |
 

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

Thanks to everyone who helped me figure out the commenting problem. I still think it's silly that you can't comment with any name you want, but I never did anyway, so I don't know why I care. Anyway, thanks.

I recently made the wonderful discovery that there are Party of Five reruns on every day at 6. It is so easy to make me happy. |
 

Saturday, May 15, 2004

I have two complaints about the new blogger capabilities. I think it is nice that they added commenting directly through blogger, but I just encountered what I consider a fairly big problem. I tried to post a comment and I was given the option of posting as "anonymous" or under my real name, and nothing else. My basic philosophy regarding anonymous blogging is that I do not want my name on the internet. But I also prefer to post comments that identify me as the commenter. As I said, I don't mind at all if people figure out who I am, but I don't want to advertise either. Oh well. My other complaint is that when creating a new post, I miss being able to see my older posts simultaneously. Why didn't anyone ask me before they made these changes? |
 

Friday, May 14, 2004

I've made it two weeks and I still like my summer job, so that is definitely something to be happy about. And it's now officially the weekend, so I can do nothing if I want, which is another thing to be happy about. And my fantasy baseball team has been in 1st or 2nd place every day for the last few weeks, even though Derek Jeter sucks (which I already thought, but have now had confirmed), so I'm happy about that too. Maybe thing are looking up, slightly. Now I am going to spend the evening happily reading my John Grisham book and worrying about absolutely nothing. |
 

Thursday, May 13, 2004

This morning someone posted a comment that I should be more careful talking about my possible future place of employment. I think I am appropriately careful in what I say. There are plenty of people at school who know who I am, and I am fine with that. If anyone who knows me relatively well comes across this blog, I realize they will know it's me. Right now I doubt that anyone from work knows me well enough to even come close to figuring it out, but that could obviously change. I definitely self-censor, sometimes more than I want to. But what I do post, I am okay with people reading. Some of it could be mildly embarrassing, just because it's a little awkward when someone suddenly knows way more about you than you've told them. But beyond that, I haven't written anything that I'm not okay with my employer or anyone else reading. If the things I write (which are incredibly innocuous and kind of boring) turn anyone against me, then they are the wrong employer or the wrong person to have in my life. |
 

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

I think I really like work. I don't know that I specifically like any of the work I'm doing, but it is all interesting and diverse. More importantly, I like the people I work with. I like them because they all seem to have unique personalities that they actually show at work. Who knows if I will end up working there permanently, but it is nice to be somewhere that I think I would be comfortable long term. |
 

Sunday, May 09, 2004

Sometimes I think I should start trying to write more smart sounding things, and then I realize that Punk'd is one of the best shows ever and then I begin to recognize that maybe I just don't have the character to worry about sounding smart. I was really in the mood for Punk'd today because I ran into my ex-boyfriend who looks like Ashton Kutcher today. Actually he used to look like him; now he looks nearly unrecognizable. He came up to me and said hello and for a split second I didn't know who it was and then I looked at his eyes and I had no doubt. It was one of the weirdest feelings I've experienced. We talked for a couple minutes and neither one of us could look away. I felt like I was shaking, but I don't think I really was. We used to have the strongest connection I have ever felt with anyone. We never belonged together, and yet we could never resist each other either. It has probably been 6 years since I've seen him. I met his wife today. The whole experience was surreal, but it felt really good to see him.

Tomorrow the other clerk starts at work. I'm worried they'll like him better. How dumb is that? I'm also worried about whether or not I'll like him. As long as he doesn't make funny noises all day or call me names we should be okay. I'm still nervous. |
 

Friday, May 07, 2004

I survived. I survived exams and my papers and my first week of work. And I am so tired, but beginning to recover.

I really like my summer job so far. I have gotten a whole bunch of assignments already about all different topics. Nothing that interesting yet, but also not too boring. Everyone seems friendly too, although not especially outgoing-friendly. One woman who I think is a relatively new associate has stopped by my office a couple times to make sure that I am doing okay, which is nice. It makes me feel guilty that I don't know her name. So far I have absolutely no complaints. If I did after a week, there might be a problem, but I am very content right now.

One benefit of working downtown is that there is a (slight) possibility of running into Brandon. Yes, I know I should be over this crush by now. But I'm not, and I'm okay with that. |
 

Monday, May 03, 2004

I started my summer job today, and I think I'm going to like it. I also think I'm going to be the regs girl. By that I mean that because of my experience with HIPAA, I already have two regulatory based assignments, and somehow I see that continuing. I have a civil procedure asssignment too - now I'm wishing I had taken civ pro II. Oh well, my original argument that I can always look it up is still true. I think I'm going to learn a lot this summer.

Enough blogging - back to my seminar paper. |
 

Sunday, May 02, 2004

In response to Mike, Journal IS fun. So go ahead and try it. Sometimes it's a pain, sometimes people are petty, but you learn a lot, get to read awesome articles, get to know interesting people, and it is overall a really good experience. |
 
Disclaimer: What I am now writing is done under the influence of four (maybe five) heinekens. It will be slightly random, and possibly error prone. I have now sent three emails regarding the Nightline preemption. Like they care. I still subscribe to the theory that every email/letter/phone call they get tells them that some greater number of people care, so maybe it matters that I make the effort. Probably not. I went out tonight to gallery hop with a friend. I saw state representative Dan Stewart while I was out. Seeing him made me happy because it made me think of you know who. I am such a loser. I made some progress today on my seminar paper. I think it will be long enough and relatively good if I expand on my innocence jurisprudence section (one sentence about each of several major cases probably is not sufficient) and if I actually put in citations where needed. I did not work on my other paper today, but that is coming along quite well. Four months is all it takes to have a decent first draft. I could be a writer, sure. When I was in high school I used to say I wanted to be an essayist. Yeah that was possible. Because it is still the 1800s and I can write. Somehow I did not get dinner today. A girl who shared a table with us had calamari that looked good. I should go to bed so I can get up and work on my paper. Or maybe I should just go to bed so that I can lay in bed and listen to the rain and be relatively peaceful. That sounds good. |