Randomness from a 2005 graduate of The Moritz College of Law at The Ohio State University


Thursday, September 30, 2004

I hate blogger. Not only does it take hours for anything to post, but now it is actually erasing my posts.

After a strange exchange of voice mail messages, I haven't heard from Older Man since Saturday night. I'm not especially concerned. I did get a weird message from New Year's Boy last night. He usually calls every few weeks in the middle of the night, but he doesn't usually leave messages. Hmmm...don't think I will be calling him back. Most interesting is the awesome email I got from Brandon a couple days ago. He invited me to do something! Not in a date type way (I don't think), but still. And he was critical of me going on a date with Older Man and wanted details... Ahhh, patience.

As for school, I have a 20 page paper to write before I leave for New York Tuesday morning. I am determined to go away over fall break, but being prepared to do so is going to be a challenge.

Sunday, September 26, 2004

I suppose after all the buildup I should tell everyone how the date went. I'm not sure how it went. We had fun. I think. We had a nice dinner, met up with friends, then went out by ourselves for another drink. There was a little serious conversation. There was a strange near-incident with a drunken man at a bar. There was no kissing (although there was the night we met). And he called me last night to apologize for the near-incident and say he had a good time. I'm not sure what to make of it all, and I don't think I'm going to try. If he wants to go out again, I will. If not, I won't be especially upset.

Saturday, September 25, 2004

The undergrads are back; football season is underway; it just fills me with school spirit. Actually, it kind of makes me want to hit an undergrad whenever one isn't in a crosswalk. But my Moritz College of Law spirit is inspired by Chris' pithy list of Moritz bloggers. I don't know if the swelling of school spirit is enough to make me feel better about spending Saturday at school though.

Friday, September 24, 2004

Oh my God. I am going on a date. I don't know how to handle this. I don't date. Why am I reconsidering my no dating policy? And why for this person? The best I can come up with is that I am bored. That, and that I think I can handle it now. I'm ready. Not ready to be in a relationship necessarily (or at all), but ready to interact with another human being without it being a big deal. Still, oh my God.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Someone just committed suicide by jumping off the parking garage at the building where I work. I saw the body, covered by a sheet, just like on tv. I don't know why, but I am oddly shaken by it. I'm not one of those people who gets especially upset about the deaths of distant relatives or someone I went to elementary school with, and yet this is upsetting me. Maybe it's because anything related to suicide evokes fears about people I love that I don't like to acknowledge on a regular basis. Or maybe it's because the rumor is that it was an attorney, and I hate to imagine that my beloved chosen profession drove someone to this. Whatever the reason that it is affecting me, it is always sad to see someone take his or his own life.
LOOK what I did!!!

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

I was trying to figure out the recent spike in visits. I'm not sure, but I think it may be due to the link from Life, Law, Libido, who called me a guy, but I'll forgive him in gratitude for the link.
So my decision to venture back into the dating arena may have been a poor one. I was a little hesitant given his age, but decided to give it a chance. Guess what? His age appears to be the least questionable thing about him. There are some things that according to my friends should be absolute deal breakers, and yet... So, here's the follow up question to how old is too old - what sort of things about a person are just too bad to overlook? Too bad to even go on one date? Hurry up and advise, because my date is scheduled for Friday.

Sunday, September 19, 2004

I have a friend visiting from out of town, so I am having a great weekend. I have no idea what we are going to do today though. Yesterday we listened to jazz and went out to dinner and went to a party. It was a full itinerary. Today I have no plans, which I suppose is fine. I should relax and enjoy myself when I have the chance.

Friday, September 17, 2004

I have been guilted into posting. I have nothing exciting to report on the older man front. For everyone who is curious, he is 14 years older than I am. I decided to at least give it a chance. So we theoretically have a date next week. He works a crazy schedule, thus the intolerable delay. It is giving me too much time to think about it. And I am concerned that I may not recognize him. We shall see.

I am feeling extremely loved because of all the acknowledgement notices I am getting in the mail. I'm not feeling all that loved since no one wants to interview me, but I'm not feeling too desperate about it yet. From keeping up with all the gossip it doesn't appear that I should be writing off the vast majority of district judges yet. With eternal optimism, another round of applications will probably go out within the next week.

The defendant in my first case agreed to a plea a few days ago. It was highly disappointing, but also a good outcome. I want to go to trial so much and this case had seemed to be a likely candidate. But you never know what will happen. I really hope I get to before the end of the semester since this is probably my only chance, especially in a criminal context, for quite some time.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Oh my God, was there drama last night... Good drama, I think. What is the biggest age difference that is acceptable in dating? What about if the older person looks young?

Thursday, September 09, 2004

I have finally retaken first place in my fantasy league. After at least a month in second, this is just the position I want to be in as the season comes to an end. If anyone has any suggestions of players to pick up to help my ERA or WHIP, let me know. Those are my worst categories, and also the only ones where I have any real chance of picking up points.

I am having a weird moment of insecurity. In my prosecution practicum, it feels like everyone else has lots of cases and I don't. That leads me to believe that everyone is asking each other to be co-counsel and not asking me. Either that or the professors don't like/trust me and are giving all the cases to everyone else. Both are silly, especially since I have one of the few cases that is very likely to go to trial, but I am still thinking these dumb things. Okay, I'm over it now. I just had to express my stupid thoughts. [Update: Not only was I being stupid and insecure, but I was also entirely wrong. Always good to have a little reality to counteract paranoia.]

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Sleepy, sleepy. Getting my clerkship applications done was remarkably draining. Maybe if I hadn't started out drained it would have been better. Maybe if I hadn't gone to the post office at 7:30am it would have been better. Definitely if I had applied to fewer judges it would have been better. It's done and I feel a tremendous sense of relief and accomplishment, but my body has not recovered yet. For the last two days my eyes have stung from my lack of sleep. It seems like for as long as I can remember I have been thinking, "If I can just get some sleep this weekend..."

The 2Ls are in the midst of the interview process and it is so weird to think back. Last year at this time life felt truly out of control. (It's a little better this year, I think...). The non-stop interviews and classes and journal assignments and meetings were almost too much to handle. I hope the current 2Ls are feeling a little more sense of balance than I did. They sure look calmer.

Monday, September 06, 2004

This says it all.

Saturday, September 04, 2004

I am almost embarrassed to admit where I am. At this very moment I am at...Cup O Joe. I was going to go to the movies with my friend (after she talked me into it), but fortunately she decided she was too tired so I could get back to work on my clerkship stuff. So I decided to work here so I could have internet access. And it is a wonderful thing. And there is a cute guy here. And none of the people who talk to me incessantly at my coffee shop. Overall, I kind of like it here... Except for the 90 cent refills.

I am in shock when I stop and think about the time and money I am investing in applying for clerkships. The time is simply immeasurable. I started spending substantial time on it last spring, narrowing my lists, working on cover letters, doing all the preliminary sorts of stuff. That has continued all summer, and there always seems to be more to do. Then of course there is the never ending process of working on my writing sample/paper. And now that the process has progressed to within a couple days of mailing, my time is consumed by the details. I spent an hour and a half Friday morning checking that all my recommendation letters were in the box provided to me by career services, and then three more hours Friday night sorting them since they were in no apparent order. Today I went and bought a lot of envelopes. Turns out even though I had a box already, that appeared large, it didn't hold nearly enough envelopes. And I bought paper. And I bought ink. And I bought labels. It never ends. Tonight I am revising my primary writing sample for the last time before mailing. I will go get it copied tomorrow. Then all I have to do is finalize my cover letters, print, and sign them. They are about 98% ready to go, so I think I can realistically get everything done before Tuesday morning. If I had not started on all this months ago, I would probably be giving up right now. I almost want to give up when I think about the cost of sending all this. I'm estimating the first round of 200 applications costing me about $400 in mailing costs, plus the $80 or so I have spent on related supplies. I have about 260 judges on my second list, so that's another $520+. This is one huge investment for an unlikely return. But just like with real investments, I am (relatively) young and I can afford to go for the high yield.

Good luck to everyone else who is applying.